The bible verse about Jesus knocking at the door is one that I’ve been familiar with all my life. Revelations 3:20
I had spent all week prepping for my son to be home. I love decorating the house and making it all Christmas cozy. I cook a ton while he’s home and try to go the extra mile to show him how much he’s loved. Presents are great but spending time together is priceless.
My habit is that my alarm is M-F only and I wake up naturally around 7:30-8am on the weekend. Sometimes earlier when my rat terrier gets her days confused. Really she must be confused, why else would she be disturbing the dead on its days off. Except this particular Saturday I was driving to pickup my son and it’s a 4 hour drive….I hadn’t set the alarm! AND the rat didn’t wake me up.
I’m sleeping so good all snug in my bed when I hear knocking.
I ignore it.
More knocking and it’s like it’s on a window pane. Geez that really needs to stop.
The knocking continues and I walk to the door. I kind of see a man and he says ‘hey.’
My eyes pop open and I’m laying there thinking is someone knocking. Ginger isn’t putting up a fuss so I’m not sure. Of course my dog is not the best guard on occasion. I don’t want to move yet but I’m awake and I’m straining to hear ANYTHING. Finally I look over at my phone laying on the nightstand and I see the time.
I knew right then God was helping me out. I said a quick prayer of thankfulness for waking me up. I could get up and look out every window and check every door knowing there wasn’t anyone. The Lord knew I had somewhere to be and gave me a mental knock.
Sure enough in less than an hour my son tells me they are already on the road, which means I’ll be arriving after them at our designated meet spot. I jump in the car, and I’m zooming down the road trying to cut down the time difference.
All of this made me think about the times I heard a spiritual knock. It may have been a hesitant knock that someone makes when they aren’t sure their welcome. Have you ever been unwelcoming to the direction that the Lord wants to point you. I know I have and sometimes I’m so stubborn it may go from a hesitant knock to a gong.
Despite having a strong christain walk it can still be tough for me to let go of my plan and say ‘ok God I see what you’re putting down.’ It’s not my will but Gods that I should be following. How freaking hard is that sometimes?! A lot of times. Just going to call it like I see it.
We have this ideal view of ourselves as we start out in life and it takes so many lefts, rights, ups, downs and sometimes even reverse before we hit the path that God intended for us in the beginning. Sure we have free will and we (I) use it A LOT, but that doesn’t mean I’m staying in Gods will when I make those choices. Many have resulted in some harsh realities but along the way you learn some things as well. Hopefully you learn how to lean into God and rely on him.
So tough as an independent woman.
It’s hard giving over that control because it’s also resting on faith. Faith is not tangible and it might not be something you can really see other than by my actions or someone else’s. Faith exists in my belief that Jesus died for me and I’m saved by his Grace. For some that is easy to accept and for others it’s not, but either way it’s still true. Hebrews 11:1; Titus 3:5-7
The knock on the window of my mind is a reminder to keep myself open to the Holy Spirit that I might discern what God is trying to tell me. It’s hard to get through that thick noggin of mine sometimes. I would imagine I’m not the only person that has this struggle.
I am thankful for these knocks because they lead to little snippets. It’s like getting a sneak peak of the big picture. How awesome is that? To be let in on the secret even if it’s a tiny bit.
So the next time you hear that spiritual knocking check and see if it’s Jesus. He’s got something you need to know about, so be curious and listen. Listen with an open heart, your skeptical mind, and your soul.
In this instance he was my wake up call and was I ever appreciative!
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